Earthquake

The song asks, “Where do we go from here?”

The earth moved, shifted

along a fault line

no one knew

was there

before.

 

The world changed in an instant a few words long.

Nothing looks the same anymore,

some things are more right

and others seem

so very very

wrong to

me.

 

They say you never see it coming, and then it is there.

The event that makes  you either rebuild

or leave it all behind and start new.

But what if you could

do both things

leave and

start?

 

Still shaken, it could take days or weeks to get solid ground

once again under these trembling legs and feet.

Feeling sodden with a weight of tears

not knowing if it is cleaner

or just seems more

clear than

it was

then.

 

No words can quite describe, although some come close,

the moment when you understand nothing

oh nothing can ever, ever be the

same again for you

for them,

us.

 

Picking up the pieces, starting something new from the rubble.

It is hard to decide what is worth fixing,

and what is really so much trash.

Where is the foundation

when you can only

see the fallen

stones of an

illusion?

 

Pick away. Pick away. One stone. One brick. One log at a time.

Baby steps, big steps, backwards steps – here we go!

Falling, rising, falling again, laying there

sopping wet with tears that burn

down my face wondering

if I have the courage

the strength or

the faith to

keep on

going.

 

I’m stupid that way though, Patron Saint of Lost Causes.

So I keep on keeping on, praying, loving, walking.

Each one takes me where God only knows.

And where God knows what

both they and I need

most of all and

that is just

love.

 

Ever been through this kind of physical or emotional or spiritual or all three?  This is my earthquake. Thanks for reading.

Copyright 2012 Shanyn Silinski

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35 Comments

  1. brian miller said,

    February 22, 2012 at 12:31 pm

    def makes me think of rebuilding the walls in nehemiah…when no one else believes it can be done…it def makes a great metaphor for our persistance…

    • shanyns said,

      February 22, 2012 at 3:39 pm

      Brian – Nehemiah is one of my favorite books, and that story is one that always moves me. Thanks for reminding me of this…so glad you came by tonight.

      • brian miller said,

        June 5, 2012 at 9:26 pm

        popping back in for OLN…thought it was familiar as i was reading it…go through earthquakes like this often with people…and had a few of my own along the way…nehemiah def is a book i like to revisit often…

      • shanyns said,

        June 5, 2012 at 11:34 pm

        Thanks Brian for the second visit, and comment! Appreciate it.

  2. claudia said,

    February 22, 2012 at 8:32 pm

    nehemiah is one of my fav books as well…but this made me also think of the so-called “trümmerfrauen” – the rubble women who re-built the destroyed cities in germany after world war II – So I keep on keeping on, praying, loving, walking… i love that you are persistant…there’s always a light at the end of each tunnel…hugs

    • shanyns said,

      February 22, 2012 at 9:10 pm

      Claudia – thank you for sharing this, I have a new word and woman to research. Rubble women – how that describes so many of us. Thank you for coming by and sharing this, and of course for enjoying the poem too. I keep on because I don’t really know how to quit well…maybe that is a flaw but it is mine!

  3. February 22, 2012 at 9:15 pm

    Oh Shanyn….know that you’ve been in my thoughts for days now. Praying for a miracle, my friend. Many {{{hugs}}} and blessings to you.

    • shanyns said,

      February 22, 2012 at 9:26 pm

      Debbie – thank you. For stopping by, for the comment and most of all for the love and prayers. Bless you my friend.

  4. February 22, 2012 at 9:23 pm

    Really love the verse structure here. The sliding effect works wonderfully.

    And the words are aces as well.

    Great work here.

    • shanyns said,

      February 22, 2012 at 9:25 pm

      Thank you! It was a visual reflection of how I felt with things sliding down to one thing, and then trying to build back up again. So glad you stopped by and I appreciate you took the time to comment!

  5. Laurie Kolp said,

    February 23, 2012 at 2:28 am

    I’ve been through emotional times like that and also had Hurricanes Rita and Ike strike us. It was difficult but we made it through. I think as long as God’s with you everything’ll be okay. keep the faith.

    • shanyns said,

      February 23, 2012 at 2:58 am

      Laurie – you are so right. Keeping the faith is the key, and with Him everything is going to be alright. Maybe not what we think ‘alright’ will be but He knows. Thanks for coming by.

  6. Sheila said,

    February 23, 2012 at 2:59 am

    Yes, I have been through many phys., spiritual, emot, earthquakes – they seem to always confirm my humaness.

    • shanyns said,

      February 23, 2012 at 3:00 am

      And confirm our ability to keep going…thanks for coming by!

  7. February 23, 2012 at 12:32 pm

    The form works well with this Shanyns, and the message is awesome. Great write!

    • shanyns said,

      February 23, 2012 at 3:42 pm

      Thank you so very much Charles…I am so pleased you stopped by.

  8. PoppySilver said,

    February 25, 2012 at 3:39 pm

    Superb!
    Profound message and the style is gorgeous 🙂 The reader can feel the flow perfectly, love it!
    Poppy

    • shanyns said,

      February 26, 2012 at 3:16 am

      Poppy – Wow…thank you so much! Great that you stopped by and I appreciate your comment very much.

  9. June 5, 2012 at 9:27 pm

    It’s sometimes so difficult to keep on keeping on and yet, somehow we find that inner resolve because, it’s the only thing we know how to do. Even though it seems impossible sometimes, we have to always try to remember, it will pass.
    Your prose is so deeply moving in so many ways. I imagine the people in Japan re-building after last year. The people of Joplin re-building after their disaster. Because, it’s what we all do.
    I found this deeply moving Shanyn and hope that all is well with you. Yes, keep the faith.

    • shanyns said,

      June 5, 2012 at 10:10 pm

      Thanks so much for coming by, and yes things are good, but with the weather warnings today I thought i would share this one again! 🙂 Love your thoughts, thanks for sharing.

  10. all time oldes said,

    June 5, 2012 at 10:52 pm

    Really beautiful.

  11. June 6, 2012 at 12:54 am

    And we keep on going, rebuilding and going, rebuilding ~ Enjoyed the meaningful words tonight ~ Thanks for sharing this ~

  12. markwindham said,

    June 6, 2012 at 1:01 am

    Structure and verse wonderful. As long as it ends in love, we will be alright.

    • shanyns said,

      June 7, 2012 at 5:06 pm

      Mark – you got it. No matter what we do it has to end in love, at least for me and then it’ll be alright. Glad you stopped by.

  13. ayala said,

    June 6, 2012 at 1:17 am

    Lovely!

  14. st3v3piper said,

    June 6, 2012 at 4:09 am

    This is quite good, I use the word wonderful to often, but this is. I’m very partial to the use of shape, and you’re so effectively, enjoyably, creative with it here.

    • shanyns said,

      June 7, 2012 at 5:07 pm

      🙂 Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving your comment! I appreciate it.

  15. June 6, 2012 at 4:45 am

    The literal world or our personal world shakes our foundations…what then shall we build or build on…Your poem is beautiful in structure and in verse!!

    http://susiessentences.blogspot.com/2012/06/when-you-find-me.html

  16. June 7, 2012 at 10:40 am

    Lots of work gone into the form on this, well done, a great piece.

    • shanyns said,

      June 7, 2012 at 5:10 pm

      Thanks! Great that you stopped by. Glad you enjoyed it.


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