Right Here, Right Now

Right here, right now I am watching blackbirds.

Right there, right now she wrests with a narcotic slumber.

Ravens play with  dead muskrats and dogs roll in mud.

She asks about long gone pets and asks about a boy she loves.

Right here, right now the rain battles with spring snow.

Right there, right now her body deserts her spirit by giving up.

My son mourns as only a small boy can and I weep for my friend.

Her partner, their love so new, holds her hands and wipes her brow.

Right here, right now the dead flowers seem to hold no seeds of promise.

Right there, right now their spring is in full blossom and she can’t see it.

Fifteen years of friendship make memories that last a life time.

How can we forget a face and a voice that lives in our hearts?

Right here, right now my mind and spirit conflict.

Right there, right now she waits to meet her Lord.

Memories weigh more when you know there are no more.

The stories have to last us now, there won’t be new ones.

Right here, right now a heart breaks and a soul rejoices.

Right there, right now a hand holds a photo in a frame.

We won’t forget. We’ll miss you. We love you.

Love you, right here. Right now.

For my dear friend Diana and for those who love her, especially you Rich.  Run free wolf sister.  Beloved Nana.

Copyright 2012 Shanyn Silinski

Linking up on dVerse for the prompt today – Live in the Moment

Linking up with my friends at With Real Toads for yesterday’s Poem Sketch Challenge

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44 Comments

  1. markwindham said,

    March 29, 2012 at 8:41 pm

    Excellent capture, beautiful and heartbreaking.

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 9:01 pm

      Mark – thank you. True thing, happening today. Thank you for coming by and for your kind comment.

  2. Christine said,

    March 29, 2012 at 8:54 pm

    very touching

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 12:54 am

      Christine – thank you. And thank you for stopping by.

  3. Blue Flute said,

    March 29, 2012 at 9:09 pm

    Something about blackbirds that always captures my attention too… and the mix of blackbirds with blossoms has emotional resonance.

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 9:31 pm

      Thank you for coming by and for leaving your thoughts.

  4. March 29, 2012 at 9:13 pm

    Such a beautiful post about conscious living, conscious dying – being right here, right now with what is occurring. Way to be brave and valiant. I am so sorry for your loss. But it sounds like, as your poem says, fifteen years make memories that last a lifetime. A most touching tribute. I love “run free, wolf sister.”

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 9:30 pm

      Sherry – thank you for your loving comment and for stopping by. Thank you.

  5. March 29, 2012 at 9:46 pm

    Shanyns: your pain and heartbreak are so real in this write. My jaw was set and I felt like reaching out to you as read it. Powerful stuff, my friend. God bless you and comfort you.
    http://charleslmashburn.wordpress.com/2012/03/29/if-the-clock-is-ticking/

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 10:32 pm

      Charles – thank you! Your presence and and words are a comfort.

  6. March 29, 2012 at 10:08 pm

    This is beautiful! What a wonderful tribute to your friend. The line that spoke loudest to me of the heartbreak of this moment was: “The stories have to last us now, there won’t be new ones.” Peace, Linda

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 10:32 pm

      Linda – thank you for coming by and leaving such a thoughtful comment.

  7. Margaret said,

    March 29, 2012 at 10:28 pm

    My son mourns as only a small boy

    Hug him close and tell him love is forever and ever. This must have been quite emotional to write – you certainly stepped up to the plate today! Thank you for sharing with us.

    • shanyns said,

      March 29, 2012 at 10:33 pm

      Margaret – I felt I had to write today, for her, but it wasn’t until I had the prompt that the words came. He knows, we’ve talked and prayed a lot but he is still young and it hurts, a lot. Thank you for coming by today.

  8. tashtoo said,

    March 29, 2012 at 10:45 pm

    You have pulled a life cycle into a captured moment and have broken my heart in the process. I’ve been using “wonderful” a lot lately, but it does not do this justice. There is nothing more humbling to me than a writer who can lay it all down, with truth and conviction. I think its amazing you have shared such a moment with us, and all I can say it Thank you!

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 12:49 am

      Tashtoo – your comment left me in tears, thank you for your words, and for taking the time to leave me your thoughts. Thank you for being here, for reading. It means a lot to share the weight of this sadness.

  9. March 29, 2012 at 11:24 pm

    What a scred moment to share with us, and with Diana. I am intrigued with the blackbirds, as they hung around when I was watching with my dying sister a few years back. I’ve used them as a metaphor in my second novel that I’m revising now. Wow!

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 12:51 am

      Victoria – thank you for sharing about the blackbirds. They have been spending time in our yard and when I started to write they just dropped down to the grass to eat. Sorry to hear about your sister. Would love to know more about your novel though. So glad you came by.

  10. March 29, 2012 at 11:37 pm

    Beautiful and affecting. This really touched my heart. This is a wonderful poem.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 12:52 am

      Thank you for coming by, and for leaving your thoughts. I appreciate both. Very much so.

  11. Laurie Kolp said,

    March 30, 2012 at 12:20 am

    So sad… but the soul does rejoice while those left behind have the memories…

    Memories weigh more when you know there are no more.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 12:53 am

      Laurie – thank you for coming by, and for sharing your thoughts. Glad those lines spoke to you.

  12. Shawna said,

    March 30, 2012 at 1:10 am

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend. I love this farewell: “Run free wolf sister.”

    The repetition of “right here, right now; right there, right now” is extremely effective as is your alternating bold/Roman text.

    I love the blackbirds, narcotic slumber, and asking about a boy she loves.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 1:24 am

      Shawna – thank you so much for this thoughtful comment and for stopping by. Great to see you here!

  13. March 30, 2012 at 1:43 am

    This is touching….I am sorry for your loss too…may your friend rest in peace ~

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 3:07 am

      Thank you. For being here and for sharing. Hugs!

  14. March 30, 2012 at 1:44 am

    So hard to lose someone we love. This was very touching, seen from different points of view and aspects made it all the more deeply touching.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 3:06 am

      Thank you for sharing, and for coming by. I appreciate it.

  15. oceangirl said,

    March 30, 2012 at 2:05 am

    I feel your pain. You capture the now, here, and there perfectly.

    It is amazing that my last poem, the one before the latest was titled same.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 3:06 am

      I will have to find your poem, and check it out. Thank you for your empathy, and for sharing your thoughts. Great that you stopped by.

  16. hedgewitch said,

    March 30, 2012 at 3:37 am

    A very moving poem, heartfelt, sincere and extremely full of a clean appraisal that is so difficult when we are hurting–this line really was amazing to me:

    “Memories weigh more when you know there are no more…”

    A person can live a whole long life and never say anything that wise. A fine, feeling poem, Shanyn. Be well.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 2:27 pm

      My dear, you have touched my heart with your presence here. Thank you so much. Hugs you!

  17. March 30, 2012 at 5:01 am

    First, blessings and comfort to all involved. Second, this is such a beautiful tribute/journey in your moment while you navigate the uncharted depths of grief. So truthful, thank you, Shanyn. 🙂

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 2:28 pm

      Hannah – thank you for the blessings and comfort. Means so much! Thank you for being here.

      • March 30, 2012 at 2:32 pm

        You’re welcome, Shan. You’re teaching others in your way and it is beautiful and valuable, I’m blessed by it. Thank YOU. ❤

      • shanyns said,

        March 30, 2012 at 3:51 pm

        Hannah – thank you! You are a blessing too!

      • March 30, 2012 at 4:08 pm

        You’re welcome. :)!

  18. zongrik said,

    March 30, 2012 at 5:41 am

    this one shouts at me -> Ravens play with dead muskrats

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 2:29 pm

      Ravens will play with almost anything. Last year one was doing ‘tug-a-war’ with another dead muskrat and my dog. Ravens cheat though (they fly) and it was a brief but funny show.

  19. March 30, 2012 at 7:40 am

    Sometimes right here, right now is the hardest place to be.

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 2:30 pm

      Kerry – you got that right! Thanks for coming by. Love that you are here.

  20. March 30, 2012 at 10:00 am

    Grief and nature – a rich mix

    • shanyns said,

      March 30, 2012 at 2:30 pm

      John – they are part of the eternal cycle and the circle we call life aren’t they? Thanks for coming by.

  21. ella said,

    March 31, 2012 at 4:19 am

    Wow, so heartbreaking and sad, yet beautiful! YOU touched so many moods of death, the memories trying to circle to encompass the pain~
    Wonderful write..
    I’m sorry for your loss~


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